Take Charge - Be Happy !!

Break the ice - Simple sayings by Alfred

I have not been talking to anyone at home for the last few days.

I am feeling terrible not talking.

I am upset at my behaviour

I am hoping someone will break the deadlock - so to say “break the ice”

It’s not happening.

I could do it, then why am i not

It’s simple to call it “EGO”

Let me try and break it up into probable cause. You may want to share your own analyses and thoughts from similar experiences

1. I feel i have valid reasons to be upset
2. I have to show more than feel i am hurt and upset
3. This is happening once too often
4. Too many times in the past, i have made up
5. I feel, i am being taken for granted
6. I am older so the younger should make the reconciliatory moves
7. Am i avoiding a larger issue
8. Am i taking on an escapist attitude
9. Am I procrastinating a larger decision
10. Have i let this become into a pattern
11. Am i so predictable to all those around me that they take me for granted
12. Am I misinterpreting their understanding of my mature as “taking for granted”
13. Am i putting off people from reconciling
14. Do i become small in any measure at all by taking the steps to reconcile

I just got my answer:

My pet “Dubee” came as usual into my room as she does every morning. Shaking her tail with her whole body language saying “good morning. I am so happy to see you”

For no fault of hers, i continued with my sulking mood (yes even first thing in the morning - the psyche dosent leave you) and ignored her.

She sat for a few minutes then jumped on the other side of my bed where i was sulking.

Again i ignored her.

Next, she came to me, nudged her nose into my arm, laid her body close to mine; and then brought her face close to mine;

Ordinarily, she would have licked me. Today she was being gentle, sensing that i was in some awful mood and despite it, laid her head on my lap and pretended to ne asleep

How could i resist this act of affection and love. Silently, i went on petting her. Normally, i would be uttering words of love and affection. My ego, my preoccupation had to extend (corrupt) even this pure gesture of love, kindness and affection

I am still holding out - stupidly and at great displeasure and damage not only to me but to all those around me

Now, my granddaughter Inaaya has walked in as every morning with her baby kangaroo doll asking for a baby feeding bottle.

This day will move on. Its entirely upto me and me alone to make it, what i want it to be.

That is LIFE as i had said. It is what we make of it

Take Charge - Be Happy!!